Oh boy

Decided against running this morning, and chose cross training instead. Did 35 minutes with BodyFate and HOLY CRAP. I forgot how much squats and pushups and lifts hurt. And then it made me run around the block as fast as I could, and I've been so spoiled with starting out slow that it nearly killed me ;P I find it funny that I can knock out 4 miles, but had trouble with 1/2 a mile this morning ;P

I'll be resting tomorrow. I need the sleep, my muscles need the break, and I have a race on Sunday.

Rough morning

But at least I got a 4 mile run in.

PMS slump

I had such a good day yesterday. Ran 4 miles, the scale was kind, and I felt like I was making progress somewhere.

And then this morning happened. Couldn't get up. Missed my run. Hate my hair. My clothes. My body. My brain. I didn't even want to leave the house. The scale was decidedly unkind, which is ridiculous, because I know I didn't gain 3 pounds in a day.

Days like this are always going to happen. There are going to be setbacks. There are going to be days when it feels like it's not worth it and I should just throw in the towel, stop exercising, and eat whatever the hell I feel like.

But I know that's far from the solution. That the self-loathing would take up permanent residence, and things would just go downhill. So I just have to focus on eating only what I bring with me to work (and avoiding the M&Ms and wedding cake) and giving it my all in beach vball tonight.